I’m a Muslim.. and I’m gay.

Semalam I was with CB, not the whole bunch, just most of us. I tak ingat macam mana tah, sekali tetiba topik pasal our dearest fren terkeluar. Our friend whose mother accepts him as a gay but warned him, “Tapi mesti jadi kewat Muslim eh”. Everyone agreed and laughed when Nassir said, “Where got such thing, kewat Islam”. But I didn’t. What is so wrong about being a “gay Muslim”?

Let me tell you a little something about what I believe. But allow me to first state my point that I am in no position to preach.

I believe that there is absolutely nothing wrong to be a practicing-gay Muslim. I believe that it is possible. I believe that my sexual orientation (aku GAY?!?!? ouh yah I am.) is truely a test from Allah. Every human on earth is put to test. Heterosexuals, homosexuals, bisexuals, transexuals, metrosexuals. Semua lah, takder sapa yang terlepas dari cubaan Allah. What is this test that I’m talking about? Test of iman, taqwa, fighting against nafsu. Fighting against nafsu? Jihad kan tuh? You betcha!

If the heterosexual men are prohibited from zina, looking at women with lust, touching women and so on, gaymen too have to abide by the probition. Vice versa. We should not look nor touch men with lust, no physical activities (you know what i mean, goddamnit). Senang kata, apa yang pompuan takleh buat towards lelaki, kita pun sama. I think it was Imam Syafii who said that wudhuk kita boleh batal kalo bersalam dengan lelaki.

Biar kita lembut, pondan-ish, gemalai or whatever it is that those straight bastards call us. Allah does not judge us on what is on the outside, because the noble of mankind is one with taqwa. Our physique is a gift from Allah, and no one has the right to insult His creation.

I paling suka sekali when I see my fellow sisters di masjid to perform the friday prayer. Like the other day, I bumped into Mimi ngan Mel.  Memang payah nak terserempak ngan sisters dalam masjid. Their reason: “Alah nyah, kita ni dah memang kena laknat pun. Sembahyang pun nanti masok neraka”. I paling benci sekali bila any one of my sisters buat statement gituh. You know who you are. This is a statement proving yang seseorang tu sudah putus asa dengan rahmat and keampunan Tuhan nya. Oh ye with little faith.

Siapa kata semua kewat masuk neraka? And who says “tiada maaf bagimu”?

It has been a very long, long, long while since I went out on a date with a guy. More than 3 years. Gone are the days when I would meet a guy from a chatroom, spend time with him for hours lunching, then watch movie, then dinner. Expecting to fall into a relationship with him. MIRC pun dah non-existence in my desktop. Some sisters asked, “Nyah, ko tak rasa lonely ke takder laki?” My reply would be, “Taklah, I suka hidup sendiri. Lagi bebas.” Well, it is not entirely the truth but this is how I abstain myself. Memang terkadang rasa nak bermanja, tapi puasa je ler.

There is absolutely no such thing as a practising Muslim, and a non-practising Muslim. Because to me, if you don’t practise Islam, you are not a Muslim.

Sejahat dan  selaser-laser MakGerl, dia tak pernah lupa kasih Allah pada dia.

So what I am trying to say here, my friends and brothers (or should I say sisters?) of Islam, is that being gay is just your sexual orientation. It does not mean that Allah condemns you to eternal hell, for He is the One who created you as such. Allah is Most Compassionate and Most Loving. Allahu’alam.

Thats is all I have to say.

Ps: Reminder that this is not another religious blog like the one created by a (like what my sisters would say) hypocrite.